Sunday, December 10, 2006
I drank the night away last night...
didn't realise how much i drank till i got drunk...
people say "drink your sorrows away.."
i didn't really believe it, but wad the heck give it a shot anyway
when i got pissed drunk.everything arounds me feel so slow motion
everything else didn't matter.. i can't feel myself...
feel so numb and reckless.
but i had to talk to her, one last time...
shook her hand and i went off.
talk to her over the phone.
i don't know if it make sense to her...
but it was to me.
i had the courage to talk to her cause i was numb and nothing else matters..
when i was showering last night.. i cried in the showers again..
but this time it was different..
it felt like i've lost something... something very precious to me...
kneeling to the ground, letting the waters flow through my body
crying alone, trying to feel how is it under my skin..
i know i'm pathetic..
i know i am......
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i don't even think you know my pain.. my eyes hurt so badly now..
i've suffered... and i wish for it to end~
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10:53 am
Carved ....