Thursday, December 28, 2006

Went to my cousin's place this morning for some visiting thingy
cause my sister's back..
THE BLOODY PLACE WAS HUGE!!!
expected la.. rich people with money.. for sure live in a place like a mansion or wadever..
the place is like "HI MTV.. WELCOME TO MY CRIB!" kinda thingy...

So yeah..
everyone's at the pool side while i wondered in the house

I was playing the grand piano in the living room,then came this girl...
a girl with a face of an angel..
she sang to a simple tune i was playing.. just like.. damn random...
i never came across someone who can come up with some words and just sang it like that..

i stopped on the 2nd bar and just looked at her...
den came my cousin...

Cousin..
Me..
Cat..

"not bad arh... sings like an angel right?"
"..... not bad.. "
"she's Cat.. and meet my cousin XingJie"
"Hmm.. Nice Melodies... musician huh?"

She speaks in a very flirty tone.. i swear!! she's one hottie i can't take my eyes off man
i just froze like right there.... staring straight at her man...

" do you like wad you see??"
"??? er..."
"hey you're blushing!! HAHAHA!!! you're attracted to Cat!"
" Arh... that's for sure... she's pretty..."
"thanks.."
"so wad you're doing here so early? "
"we're suppose to do some research on stuff but in the end...nothing's gonna be done."

"you sing very well... vocal lessons?"
"no no.. i sing for intrest.. didn't take vocal lessons.. but i try to learn through my friends thou"
"you don't need to try learning.. you're there already.."

whispers starting between Cat and my cousin..

"i'll sing for you.."
i gave a look.. like the.. "oooooooookay~~~" look
"you know how to play "truely madly deeply"?"
"sure.."

then i start playing the chords for it.. and she sang.. beautiful man..
it's like she sang her heart out and it's for you... FOR ME!!
mama~ melting core...

so well... 4 simple chords, 2 person, 1 song..
blasting amazing...

Carved ....

Friday, December 22, 2006

OH! before i forget... i want Keira Knightley too...

Carved ....

Thursday, December 21, 2006

OK OK OK !!!
Everyone's asking me wad i want for christmas..
SO.....

what i want for christmas right ..
very simple..
I WANT EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!

to be realistic..
first impt thing~
















Alright man this is top on my list
i want to own the Incubus DVD entitled "Morning View Sessons"
if not the CD... also can.. :)

next..
















this are the effects i want Boss FV-50L and Phase Shifter..
gotta get em.. need em man..








lastly.. of course, i want someone special
this is something money can't buy...
and it's impossible for me to get..

i need someone to rely on..

Grrr...

Whatever... that's it...

GO HURRY SHOP FOR ME!!!! GO!!!

Carved ....

have you ever waited for someone for so long
and you need to be confident in yourself
so you tell yourself
" i'm gonna get her as long as i wait.. "

you text her once everyday sending msges that you care
and in any case you'll be there for her
she didn't reply you but it's ok...
you hope that tmr will be a better day

then came one of those days that she textes you
asking you if you're ok are you doing fine?
yeah!! hell yeah you got excited and you text back..
you thought she cares for you and all
here comes your chance.. if you want her go out and get her!!
it's your time now...

BULL SHIT!!!

she's still with her boyfriend..
and although they've been qarreling
you stand no where near her heart...
you've always got a gut feeling that there's something wrong
but you hold on to it..
all of your friends asked you to move on..
GIVE UP!!! GIVE UP!!! OR YOU'LL DIE!!
"SHE'S NOT THINKING OF YOU!"
"SHE'S NOT GIVING A DAMN TO YOU!"
you didn't listen to all the people trying to rescue you from drowning..
you wish for a miracle..

in the end...
who died?
no one but you..
that girl's happy alive, friends laugh at your stupidity.

Love shldn't be so fucked.. it's not suppose to feel this way..

Carved ....

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

Anyways.. i've always wanted a hollywood star..

MY NAME'S GOTTA GET UP THERE SOMEHOW....

i need a star! i want to be a star..

Carved ....

Saturday, December 16, 2006

alright..i'm up early today... IT'S A SATURDAY MAN!!!
i should be on my bed.. snoring away or something..
wanna know why??

shaun's on vacation... he texted me

16/12/2006 08:43:37 AM
"Dude.. Coincidence.. My flight is A320.. Taking off now..i'm scared.. sms you when i touch down.."

ok wad he was trying to say was.... A320 is a song by Foo Fighters.. it's like a plane crash song.. so ya.... Shaun YOU'RE GOING DOWN!!!!

16/12/2006 11:27:39 AM
"Yay! I'm alive!"

ok dude... TEXT ME SO EARLI JUST TO TELL ME YOU'RE ABOUT TO DIE...
never mind.. i still can go back to sleep...
2ND msg came to tell me you're alive...
CHEE BEH!!!!!!!!!!

i bet when the plane's about to take flight you're listen to the song arh...
HweeeeLing (Feeling) type....


X
Thinking no more
X

Carved ....

7 am, gotta get up, needa rush off to school..
i'm almost late, calls kept coming in,screaming "where the hell are you!!"
my eyes are still half open, if i don't prepare now i'm doomed
"yeah i'm coming but not so soon!"

along the way, i bump into someone i knew.
we had a good chat, yeah.. both of us, 2.
hell i look like crap,but she was god damn beautiful
45 mins went by so fast, it just like flew..

we'd exchanged numbers, it was so cool
wad's uncool was... I heard my alarm go off.. i was still in my drool

YEAH BALLS I DREAMT BOUT IT MAN!!!!!

Carved ....

Friday, December 15, 2006

Carved ....

Sunday, December 10, 2006

I drank the night away last night...
didn't realise how much i drank till i got drunk...

people say "drink your sorrows away.."
i didn't really believe it, but wad the heck give it a shot anyway
when i got pissed drunk.everything arounds me feel so slow motion
everything else didn't matter.. i can't feel myself...
feel so numb and reckless.

but i had to talk to her, one last time...
shook her hand and i went off.
talk to her over the phone.
i don't know if it make sense to her...
but it was to me.

i had the courage to talk to her cause i was numb and nothing else matters..
when i was showering last night.. i cried in the showers again..
but this time it was different..
it felt like i've lost something... something very precious to me...
kneeling to the ground, letting the waters flow through my body
crying alone, trying to feel how is it under my skin..

i know i'm pathetic..
i know i am......

X

i don't even think you know my pain.. my eyes hurt so badly now..

i've suffered... and i wish for it to end~

X

Carved ....

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

- Have You Ever -
`Trap

Ever felt so trapped into something and you want out?
you tried to help and hope it's for the best.. not for yourself but others
you set your heart to it and start making a move
but you made one wrong step and you fell in to a deep hole...


` The Wait

You start making a move and the other person's not reacting..
Phone calls were not answered and Sms was not replied
You waited for hours and still no sign of that person getting back to you..
Then you wanna text that person again
but yet... you don't wanna irritate that person....
Drives you mad doesn't it?

` Thoughts

I cried in the shower last night.. realising what's the problem
I asked myself is this worth it? Why am i back to the place i don't want to be...
knowing that people don't read my blogg so i'm blogging it here..
I felt pathetic.. helpless.. stupid.. restless.. deplorable..
it's effecting everything i do writing music, meeting people , studying , EVERYTHING!

`People

I didn't tell anyone cause they'll say
"OH! Aiyah he's being Xingg.. the EMO kid.. as usual.. ALWAYS ONE WAD!!"
OR
"Aiyah.. you always emo one wad... if you're not emo... you're not Xingg.."

Seriously.. """""" I'M SO PROUD BEING EMO!!!!! """"""
who will be there for me tell me???!!!
YOU?
THE ONE THAT'S READING THIS POST I'D JUST TYPED !?

`Feelings

Would she care?
Does she know how i feel?
Even if i cry, scream or died for her..
would she even bother?

So..
Ever felt so trapped into something and you want out??

Carved ....

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

I've never come to a situation that someone can be so selfish and just do wad he/she please..
that person send me a msg saying

" you do not understand how angry i am with you ....... (blah blah blah) you can have This.. (blah blah blah) ..."

Apparently that person was pushing to me his/her favourite thing.. treating (that thingy) as a ball or a toy..
seriously i was pissed... i felt angry..but then the sadness hit me.. how can he treat (that thingy) like that... i felt sorry for him/her and i replied him/her back...

He/She was being selfish as in.. he/she didn't think for himself/herself nor for the ( that thingy) ...

X

I wuld love to be with you... but if it's this way hell no...

X

Carved ....

Sunday, December 03, 2006

I Press Keys..

I Write Melodies..

I Pull Strings..

I Make Notes Scream..

I Played A Good Show Last Night

I Did My Best.. And Pulled The Right Notes..

But The Crowd There Don't Seem To Quite Connect With The Band...

or is it me?

X

But Wad Made Me So Disappointed Was That You Said You'll Be There..But You Weren't

You Know I've Been Longing To Me You But You Didn't Show Up..

Yeah I Did My Best.. And Why? Cause I Was Happy.. Thought That You'll Come Down..

I Guess We'll Never Meet.. -Xingg

X

Carved ....